is this just fantasy?

last week a friend of mine was asking me if i ever doubt our religion. he was concerned that maybe all of what he believed was a lie or fake and that there was nothing to being a Hare Krsna. maybe we all just have this one life, nothing really matters, and then we die - thats it. of course i've also had these thoughts and im sure many others, who are vaguely spiritual, have too. is what we believe in vain? what is the right faith? how do we really know that God exists? should we just be acting the way we want to and not be concerned with consequences or afterlife?

i replied to him the best way i could according to my spiritual maturity and realizations but pondered the thought for a couple days after. i can't confirm anything for I have never seen God. All i know is that I have faith that what i believe is correct. I also know that if there really is only nothingness in this world, well, im glad that i am apart of something that is so fun and challenging at the same time. What would I rather be doing? I get to live in India in one of the holiest places in the world. I get to wear bright colorful sari's and be apart of ancient traditional pastimes. I hear philosophy every single day and meditate on my true self and soul. i get inspired by my fellow devotees' real approach to living clean, healthy lifestyles.and thats not even the best part; worshiping the Lord is the best part! we sing in an ancient language, ecstatically dance, light candles, offer incense; everything is bright and colorful. And Lord Krishna is the most beautiful being i have ever seen in my life.

Being a Vaisnava is not only austere but supremely electric. I dont even care if what i am doing is in vain because it makes me happy. i am at my best when surrendering unto a higher personality who loves me unconditionally. i dont want to be running around becoming a drunk or a used woman; if thats reality then i dont want it! i want to keep learning and growing while i still have time. time is precious when death is around each corner and instead of wasting it, i am channeling it into lighting up my life physically, mentally and spiritually.

"Who seeks shall find." ~Sophocles